Hello My Friends! 🎉🎉🎉
Happy 2023 to you since this is my first post of the year!
Friends! I was gonna talk about New York Fashion Week and its amazingness butttttttt…I changed my mind. I want to talk about my move to VEGAS BABY!!
I no longer reside in Texas! After 192 days I am an official resident of the state of Nevada.
Very few are aware that I have moved! I kept it that way for various reasons that I am now ready to share.
It all started with a dream. Not like Martin Luther King but an actual dream. You know the kind you have while sleeping.
February 2022 I had a dream of a desert area but I was not clear on where exactly it was but I assumed it was Arizona. Mainly because I had never been to Vegas and had a burning desire to move to Arizona since high school. The dream goes on and a little girl is in the dream about the age of 5 and she is in a yellow doll top and had really pretty curly hair. Also an old co-worker who was well respected at my old job appeared alone with a guy with a super bright face. The little girl was in front of me but the two guys sat at a table and signaled for me to look out the window. So I did and I saw a cactus and this orange/red rocks. Again I have never been to the desert so I didn’t know then what places in the US had desert land. After viewing the area from the window I woke up and it all made sense but I only told three of my friends. One who is in my intro, Sandrine and we will talk about the other two in a little. I told Sandrine and it was like I had revelation of what happened in my dream. I knew suddenly who the little girl was while texting Sandrine. She was my daughter, Harlowe. A baby I had never got to meet due to a miscarriage. Basically the dream brought revelation and clarity to what was next for me. Mind you I had last spoke to my friend Sandrine about my angel babies back in 2019. I saw them both in a dream and assumed they were boys. Anyway, fast forward to April 2022 I had another dream but this one was far more specific and I knew Vegas was where I was headed. Now I did not understand why I was going, but I knew I wanted to go and wasn’t going flake on a once in a lifetime opportunity to move. June 2022 I actually hopped on a plane and visited Las Vegas with my family and I had a blast with them. Just some things I was relying on didn’t go as planned. Like the house I really wanted as the realtor was showing us the house, it sold. Then I found out my job was ending and then I just knew I needed to be alone to pray and process. So I did exactly that because one thing about Pacific Standard time I cannot get use to it lol! Even now!! Central time is life in my book!😂
I found myself up at 3am and I began to write in my journal and listen to some worship music. I found a spot in a conference room that was available in our hotel. I found peace in the mix of all of the disappointing news that seemed like boulders that rolled on top of me. Usually when I journal I just vocalize to God what’s happening, how I feel, my thought process, and a lot of times what I sense he is saying to me. This particular day I felt the Holy Spirit was telling me I needed to come alone. I didn’t understand then but I do now.
After my trip to Vegas I returned to Texas and still things were just spiritually not right. So I just packed up my apartment little by little. Then July 2022 I had two dreams but the one that stood out was the very last dream I had with a very straightforward message to prepare to move to for Vegas. There was a big banner in a train station with purple and green letters saying, “It’s time to leave”. That was my third confirmation that I was moving to Vegas. Not sure why God chose there but I was going. My friends Sandrine, Racquel, Shandra were the only ones who knew and they were excited for me.
July 30,2022 I officially moved out of my apartment (Thanks Tony for your help♥️) and put everything except 5 suitcases full of clothes, shoes, and some of my favorite things. I loaded up my car and I couldn’t believe I was going to Vegas with no plans, no place, but I knew God had a purpose. I did stay in my car for a few days but ended up going to stay a couple weeks with my godsister in Louisiana until I grew extremely restless and new I needed to follow the nudge to hit the road. I did leave and drove back to Texas because there was an issue with the way I secured my storage and they needed me to correct it since they had no key to the storage. Again I was sleeping in my car in Pearland, Tx this time for about a week. On September 8, 2022 I had another dream that actually woke me up immediately. The people in the dream had told me it was time to leave. So I got up went into the dream and freshened up and drove to Buc-ee’s which is my absolute, favorite gas station on the planet!
I gassed up my car and I hit the road to Vegas. I texted my godbrother, my friends, and then my family to let them know I was gonna head on to Vegas. The excitement I felt was unmatched! I was finally doing it and I sang my heart out for 11 hours on September 8. Then another 10 hours on September 9th. I knew if I was going to move I had to just go and trust God to take care of me in the unknown.
I kept my entire trip to Vegas among close family and friends because I am not one to broadcast my life. Plus I had no concrete plans or even an explanation but I just knew I was trusting God in this whole move.
September 8 after driving for 11 hours I decided it would be best to stop at a rest stop and get some sleep. So in New Mexico I parked my car at the rest stop and let me tell you the wind was blowinggggg!! It was cold and I learned the time changed to Mountain Standard Time. Oh and I was DONE! Time change is hard for me now that I am older. But I got me some good rest after pulling out my favorite blanket from my back seat and snoozed. No worries I wasn’t the only one doing this there were a ton of cars and vans doing the same thing. About 7am MST I got up and got myself together and then I hit the road in route to Vegas. But anyone that knows me knows I love Target so I stopped in Albuquerque, NM at a gas station first for coffee and then I saw a Target and I stopped and enjoyed time with my therapist (Tarjay). About 20 minutes later I was back on the road and about 9 hours later I made it to Vegas while on the phone with my godmom and my mom. I had never seen mountains unclose before this trip but it was a cool but scary experience all at the same time.
I made it to Vegas on September 10, 2022 at 8:37pm PST. The time changed again!🤦🏾♀️
I did not have a hotel booked when I arrived so I stopped by a Starbucks and while in my car I searched for a hotel. I found one called the Virgin Hotel which was immaculate. There is a video here about that on my Youtube channel.
I still was in shock I made it to Vegas and still it was not clear why I was in Vegas or what was next. I just still believed that I could trust God with how it would all work out.
I can say faith took on a whole new meaning for me because I learned some things that I would not have learned had I stayed in what I accepted as my norm. Three things, no four things I learned while in Vegas so far.
The first thing is faith isn’t always about having all the details and the why’s and how to’s of everything. I had to learn to follow God blindly because I learned to be a planner my whole life. From A to Z all the details had to make sense and happen exactly as planned. But that’s not the case now. I had to unlearn that and relearn the very definition of, “We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps” – Proverbs 16:9 NLT. The unknown doesn’t feel good but God promised he was with me wherever I go.
The second thing I learned is the importance of having friends that cover you and stand with you. My friends live pretty far away. Racquel is in Illinois, Shandra and Sandrine are in Louisiana. There is also Jennie who is in Alabama, Fannie in Virginia, and Robyn in Louisiana too. I cannot forget my long time friend from Mexico, Marilu. It had been my prayer for a while for God to surround me with friends that are godly and cover me no matter what. You know God did exactly that but better. I learned my friends supported me where I didn’t know I needed support and also helped me decipher what God was saying as I did have more dreams and I had a lot of things happening all at once. I honor their friendship because for once I had to step back and learn with and from them completely new ways of being in friendship. Clearing out what no longer served me and making room for what I didn’t know I needed from them. Support. And can I just say my friends are my safe place where I don’t have to hold a thing back. Even if I did they can sense what I am holding back because they have my best interest. Thank you ladies!😘
The third thing I learned was how to just pray. If I didn’t know anything else I learned to simply pray and remind myself of the promises of God. I bought me a Bible in October 2022 because I had not had one since my senior year of high school. I got my Bible and I just read repeatedly what echoed within. Mainly Joshua 1:9, Proverbs 16:9, 1 Sam 14:6, Proverbs 3:5-6 and my favorite has been Colossians 1:27 (TPT and NKJV). I would get out my journal and just write everyday since July 30, 2022 I would write and pray. It got me through fear, uncertainty, and the moments of just wanting to go back to the comfort my normal routine of living brought. I learned through prayer I had to surrender all I had in mind for what didn’t and still doesn’t make sense. Prayer taught me how to seek God even when I was too frustrated with things not making sense. Through tears, silence, and even mentally being drained I found what I needed when I just prayed aloud, singing or journaling. God cares.
The last thing I learned was no explanation is enough. I cannot tell you how many times I was asked why was I moving, where was I gonna live, what was my plan, how was I gonna do this or that. It’s really hard to explain what you don’t understand. I leaned into God more now that I still have no explanation for how things are going to go. I just know that he causes all things to work together for my good. So it didn’t have to make sense to anyone, my heart just needed to be set on trusting God to be reason enough. There is strength in not knowing everything. Even security because it’s placed in God. I was told several times along the way that I’m secretive, not communicative, and just flat out not very open. In this all I learned how to discern who was safe to share everything with and who was not. Period!
I’ve learned so much more but I’ll save that for another blog. I never knew I would dare to break my routine and move some 1500 miles away from what was once home. I can tell you it’s been now been a year since my first dream in February of 2022 and I don’t regret a thing.
Here is a piece of my journey to Vegas and a little of my heart. I’ll be sharing more just don’t want this entry to be too long. Until next time. Thank you for stopping by! 👋🏾
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